In January of this year our family started the journey of
adoption. It’s a journey that will lead
us to a little boy in Colombia, South America….you might’ve heard of it J
It has been a long year full of home study interviews and paperwork. Our family has been so blessed by all of the
encouragement we have received from our family, church, and friends. Watching God provide close to $15,000 to our
family in less than 6 months was nothing short of miraculous. We continually
stand in awe of all that He has done not only for us, but in us this past year.
We are now in the agonizing part of this journey where all
we can do is wait – we wait for approval from Colombia and then we wait to find
out just exactly who our son is.
About 2 months ago, we thought the wait was over. Our social worker presented us with the file
and picture of a precious 2 ½ year old little boy. Almost immediately – we said ‘Yes! We want to
be his mommy and daddy.” We believed we
had found our son and it was so sweet to look into his eyes. We promised him love and a family – two
things he had not had in his short little life.
A few days later, we found out that we would not be able to
adopt this sweet boy. There had been
miscommunication between the Colombian government and our adoption agency. Our family rejoices for this sweet boy – he
couldn’t be ours because he was already being adopted by another family.
But our hearts were broken…crushed under a weight of grief
that we could not explain. We had been
told to guard our hearts and not fall in love too quickly, but you can’t commit
to being child’s mommy and daddy without loving them with the full force that
comes from a parent’s heart.
But even in the midst of that experience and knowing that it
could happen again, we have felt peace.
- A peace
that surpasses all understanding.
- A peace that tells us to stay with God, to
remember who He is,
to trust in His plan, to know what He is for
- A peace that comforts our broken hearts
- A peace that we ask God to surround our son with
at this very moment
It is the peace that came to this earth on the night Jesus
was born.
Luke 2:11-14
“Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you;
he is the Messiah, the Lord. This will
be a sign to you: You will find the baby wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying
in a manger. Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the
angel, praising God and saying. “Glory to God in the highest and on earth,
peace and good will toward men.”
Even though Jacob and I were both terrified to be up there, speaking into a microphone, it was very special for us and our children...who wanted to know why they didn't get a turn to talk in the microphone =)
But then the most special part happened....
After the service, a beautiful young woman came up to me and called me by name. She said she wanted to briefly tell me her story. She said her mother brought her home from Honduras 31 years ago. She said she was not the first, second, or third child her mother had tried to bring home. She said her mother's heart was broken and her journey was tough - but she knew that God had ordained her mother to be her mommy. She encouraged me in that God knows who our son is and that He has the big and perfect plan, no matter how painful it is. She said her song for her mother is "What Love Is This"...which is one of my all time favorites.
What love is this, that you gave your life for me
And made a way for me to know you
And I confess you're always enough for me you're all I need
And made a way for me to know you
And I confess you're always enough for me you're all I need
This song is written about the love Christ has for us in that He laid down his life to make a way for us to be in a relationship with Him. She said, "You know...my mom did that. She laid her heart down for me over and over again so that I could be hers. Hang in there, you will get to the son God has chosen for you."
I couldn't thank her enough for her encouragement and for sharing her beautiful story with me.
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